Following Your Moon Thread
A PERSONAL RELATIONSHIP WITH THE MOON AND TAROT
ASKING FOR GUIDANCE
Sitting on a sloped rock in the mountains of Northern California, I asked a question of the Story Medicine Tarot about how to move through a fear I was experiencing. Working with this deck is like talking to a soul sister. Much like developing a relationship with the moon, these cards wink at me with knowing eyes whenever I lose my way and fall into doubt or despair.
Below is the description of the card that I pulled: 8 of Wands
I am the Moon Thread that holds your prayer. I hold you and keep you dear when the winds of change come with turbulence and might. I say do not be afraid, change is always coming. I say, hold on to the thread of your Grandmother Moon.
- From the Story Medicine Tarot by Jessica Zinchuk
LEARNING FROM DOUBT TO DEVELOP TRUST
there is a part of me that wants to give up
she shows up uninvited in my thoughts like a temporary power outage
i have shown her the door a million times yet she keeps coming back with a platter of well crafted reasons to turn around and not go forward
her offerings taste acidic, like a mouthful of worry
my antidote is to follow the moon thread back to the source of trusting the cycle
the thread is like an invisible umbilical cord that shows me the way through uncertainty
a tether to the shore when the tide recedes and pulls me with it out to sea
it’s like visiting a fuse box to reset the switch on giving up so i can give in and surrender to knowing that i will be guided
over many moon cycles i have become aware of my process of wrestling with doubt
doubt is a teacher
she visits me when i am at a crossroad and feel scared and vulnerable
she is the undertow
the younger sister of fear
she is sad and has suffered many disappointments
she carries the burden of a lifetime of perceived failures
she wants company to reminisce about all the wrong turns
and when she feels ignored she creates a storm so powerful that the lights go out and i can no longer see what is right in front of me
trust is a muscle that is strengthened through experience
and still doubt tries to take me into her arms and convince me it’s better to stay where i am rather than go into the unknown
the moon is a teacher who shows me how to not get stuck or paralyzed in the face of constant change
she lives by the example of her flowing nature
yet there is still a part of me that wants to give up when the challenges seem too big to face
i hear a voice say: “be grateful to doubt for trying to protect you from loss, pain, and suffering.”
in the acknowledgment of doubt there seems to be an opening
now when she knocks on my door i greet her and offer her tea and a comfortable place to put her worries to rest
doubt has taught me that ignoring her and shutting her out only makes her more persistent and anxious
she will continue to wander and grow more desperate until i look her in the eyes with compassion and say:
“i hear you, i appreciate you looking out for me, and i choose to trust that i will be guided through each new obstacle and challenge. some mistakes are necessary for my growth. i trust that help will be there when i need it.”
MAY IT BE SO
May you be guided and follow your moon thread to distant shores and back home to yourSelf in every breath.
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